Christmas Day. Celebrated by millions around the world and by me too. I remember the fond memories of my childhood Christmases. As a little girl, I remember all my family coming together peacefully for this one day a year when food was plentiful, arguments were few and I received a cherished toy. As I grew older, I started to really see the stress and frustration and anguish that Christmas Day caused the members of my family. Christmas had lost its appeal and for many years I detested it. Becoming a member of the Jehovah’s Witnesses religion for 20years helped to further imbed a dislike for Christmas (and Easter and other ‘pagan celebrations’). My children never grew up with Christmas and now only celebrate it half heartedly to please others.
I enjoy the connection of family and friends on the day, if it is a good connection that is. Otherwise, I’d run away to have a holiday on my own and try to pretend it didn’t matter to me. It did! And this year I was able to create a loving and unconditionally giving memory of Christmas, thanks to Susie and Craig and their family.
I woke up late and they had already started to give out presents. I joined in the fun. I too received thoughtful gifts. Thank you with much love. Then came food preparation time, which I was relieved of (the thought of cutting my fingers was too gross for the family to endure). I attended to sending Merry Christmas messages and phone calls.
Jordan works part-time as a reptile handler. He has 2 frill-neck lizards, 2 leaf-tailed geckos and a spotted snake. It was a joy to have him share his passion with me.
After a relaxing spa, I sat down to a glorious Christmas lunch/dinner. That one meal has restored my faith in having meaningful connections at this time, instead of floating on the periphery of it and pretending it doesn’t mean much.
I went to bed early as I was back to walking again on Boxing Day. My backpack would be lighter as I was only taking essentials. I was staying another night and could leave many items aside for the walk.
Inspirational Thought – Christmas Day may be sad, traumatic, unbearable or uncomfortable for you to endure. Seek out the experience of Christmas you want to have. Giving and loving others unconditionally, leaves you open to receive from those around you.
You are doing so wonderfully Eleni! I’m reading your reflections with great interest! I’m there with you every step of the way. Keep up the good work!:) (You may not recall my name – I’m a friend of Desiree Latour).